Friday, March 18, 2005
feel like crying. for no reason. maybe there is. but i just don't know what it is.
went out today. again. but i was not in a shopping mood. so was feeling irritated all the time. walked around raffles city after lunch. lunch was terrible. was supposed to go to royal china at raffles hotel. then saw this restaurant opposite. so mom and dad decided to go there. what a bad decision. my mood could have been better if we went to royal china. ok. so walked around royal china then cabbed down to paragon. was feeling very sleepy. walked around taka too. was very boring. sighh. then finally cabbed home cause dad had to go for dinner with friends i think. so that's about it i guess. leaving out the part where i watched tv the whole night?
i had just been thinking. mom had been so nice for the past year. and now, she's back to normal. maybe all the miracles had gone. i am getting so easily pissed off by her. i prefer the other mom. i want her to come back. will my wish come true? will miracles happen again?
i don't know whether going back to canada would be a good or bad thing. i'm very sure i missed everyone and everything there. i'm afraid of losing a cousin. i don't want to have distant cousins. especially the one and only cousin we (me and my sister) could share things with. although she's half a year younger than my sister. but all my other cousins are too young. i had a cousin older than me and we were so close once, but now we are so distant. i still remembered how he used to take care of me and how we used to play together. i missed those times. sighh. why can't adults settle things without implicating us? sighh. i had always envy others of being able to be so close with their cousins. sighh. well, i shall just hoped for the best. maybe a miracle will happen.
okay. i shall try to complete my homeworks by today. but i'm in no mood to do them...
depressed. sad. crying silently in my heart.[71 more days to Canada]
so will it be a good or bad thing? i don't wish to know.
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
10:40 AM